Underneath my yellow skin

Let’s talk about health, baby

the best is a combination of all of the above.
All the bad and none of the good.

Hello. I have sinus problems. It is no fun. I think it’s allergies, but I am not not sure. I woke up feeling as if ice picks are being smashed up my nostrils. By the way, I think I know why I’ve had two migraines and the beginning of the third in the past two weeks is because of the lemonade lite I bought that has Stevia. Now, it’s not one of the listed side effects, but it’s the only thing that has changed in my diet, and I haven’t had a full migraine for about a decade.

I had a taiji classmate who asked me how to tell if a headache is a migraine, and my immediate response was that you would know if you had a migraine. Correction, that’s if you get the headache part of it. My taiji teacher doesn’t, and I’ve learned that’s a type of migraine, albeit rare. You get all the accompanying symptoms without the actual headache. That sounds wacky to me, but it’s apparently a thing.

For me, I can tell because the world goes gray. Or rather, everything starts losing color and feels dull. In addition, stimuli hurts even more than usual (I have sensory issues in general), and I find myself wincing at the least bit of light. When I say hurt, I mean physically. The light hurts my eyeballs, and sounds hurt my ears. It’s as if I have no sensory filter, and everything scores a direct and palpable hit.

If I’m lucky and I catch it right in the beginning, I can pop two Excedrin Migraine (or the generic equivalent), deal with a lowkey headache, and go about my life. If I don’t catch it in time, however, it’s a completely different matter. I will say that I’m still lucky because I can at least function when I have a migraine, albeit at a much less productive pace. I have to turn off all the lights and if I’m watching a video, I have to keep the sound extremely low. I can still write/work, but I have to take more breaks, and my brain runs at a slower pace. The full migraine lasts roughly twenty-four hours, and the chemtrails last for another twenty-four hours or so.

Sinus issues are a different matter. This time, it’s not a sinus headache. It’s my nose feeling as if I’ve snorted a handful of pine needles into it. Again, it’s as if I have no filters, and I can feel everything more intensely than I otherwise would. My nose is also stuffy, and my ears are scabby. I have a cough that comes and goes as it pleases. My body is aching, but that could also be because of some changes my teacher is making to our stance in taiji. It takes more effort, though it’s supposed to be better for you in the long run.

Speaking of taiji, I have yet to make it to the Monday class. Granted, there have only been two of them and one was because of a migraine, but it’s discouraging. I have every intention of going, but then I don’t. Again, the first time was understandable, but the second was just me giving in to my anxiety. My brain started railing about everything that could possibly go wrong, and I ended up giving in. There are two new classes starting this week, one of them is tonight. Rather, this isn’t a new class, but my teacher is teaching it for the first time. I won’t be attending this one. She has a new class at the NE studio on Friday from 3 p.m. to 4:15 p.m., and I’ll go to that one. Two classes a week isn’t enough, but it’s all I’m capable of right now. I want to add the Monday class into the mix at some point, but I have to be honest with myself. It’s not going to be soon.

I’m upping my daily regiment bit by bit as well. Mostly by adding stretches, but also by concentrating on some of the new changes, trying to be mindful about it. I used to do maybe five minutes a day, tops, and now it’s up to a half hour. I also do two simple stretches every time I get up from the computer, which is really helping my shoulders and my back. It’s amazing how so little effort can result in pretty dramatic changes. That’s the whole premise of taiji–putting out as little effort as possible to get the biggest result.

Food-wise, I still haven’t used my instapot again since the pork debacle. I really think if my expectations had been more in line with reality, I would have been more receptive to using the instapot. Instead, all I heard was how it was a life-saver, a game-changer, and the second coming of Jesus. I found none of that to be true, and I felt bitterly betrayed. I’ve since realized that the people doing the raving were on a completely different page than I was. They were veteran cooks, mostly family people, used to cooking for four or more people at a time. In addition, the part of cooking I hate the most (the prepping) is something that doesn’t seem to bother actual cooks, so none of them mention it in their ravings.

Let me be plain. The one thing the instapot saves time with is how long the thing cooks. And that isn’t even a given if the cooking time is minimal to begin with. The first thing I tried was mashed potato, and I could have done it in the same amount of time in a pan/pot/whatever on a stove. Otherwise, I can’t see the benefit. Like the pork recipe seemed simple enough. Four ingredients, two of them liquid. Throw it in instapot and be done with it, right? Wrong. The first thing I had to do was brown the chunks of meat, which I ended up doing in a skillet, anyway. I did like being able to (finally) toss it in the instapot and let it cook, but that really didn’t outweigh all the things about cooking that make me not care for it.

I’m getting the chills. I have no idea why. I’m also sleeping more than I normally would. Both of these things are usually indicative of me being sick, but I don’t feel sick (except for the sinus bullshit. Which, again, I think is allergy-based, not sickness-related. I can’t really tell you how I know the difference, but I do).

I’m afraid this is my new normal. In the past five months, I’ve been sick more often than I’ve been well. Granted, it’s been different things, but it bespeaks of a bigger issue than just getting a cold or whatnot. I’m thinking it’s an immune system issue, and I know I need to see a doctor about it. I have to get my thyroid check for my annual adjust-my-meds appointment, so I’m going to ask my doctor about my problems. I hate going to the doctor, and I try to make it as quick as possible, but this time, I need to take care of a few lingering issues.

It’s hard because when I think about it, I just get tired and don’t want to do anything. That goes back to my need to find a new therapist, but I get doubly tired thinking about that. I know what I need to do; we’ll see if I can actually do it.

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