Being sick is many things, including fucking boring. All I can think about is how miserable I am and how I don’t want to do anything other than sleep or just loll on the couch. It’s one reason I withdraw when I’m sick–I don’t want to subject others to my whining about how terrible I feel. I don’t even feel human when I’m sick, which is why I describe what I’m going through as aliens chewing on my face. They’re still doing it, but with much less gusto and more quietly. I’m feeling more like myself, and I would estimate I’m at 50%. I know that doesn’t sound great, but it’s better than the -100%* I was feeling a week ago.
I’m a total bitch when I’m sick, which is a bonus to living alone. I don’t have to put on a cheery face for anyone, except maybe my cat. Since he sleeps up to eighteen hours a day, that’s not a huge problem. Plus, he was a great heating pad for my legs when I was feeling like absolute shit. I’m really trying to take it easy so I don’t have a release, but it’s hard. I think it’s only human nature to do more than you’re able when you start feeling a little better, and I’m trying not to give in to that impulse.
Anyway, I’m taking the rest of this week off from posting in order to concentrate on my health. I will continue to post a video a day, but that’s it. Hopefully, I’ll be back to daily posting during the week next Monday.
*Yes, I know that’s impossible. Don’t @ me.