I feel like shit. Physically, mentall, and emotionally. The first is easiest to explain. I got my Covid booster and my flu shot yesterday. I react very badly to shots. I knew better than to get both at the same time, but that was warring with the part of me that really resists doing anything at all. The latter is the thing that makes me overdo it when I actually muster up the energy to do anything.
My flu arm is just a bit puffy and not tender at all. The left arm is tender, sore, and puffy. It hurts if I even just brush against it, and it hurts if I lift it over above shoulder level. Plus, I’m just exhausted. More so than in general. I knew to expect this because this always happens when I get vaxes, but it does not make it easier knowing it’s going to happen beforehand.
I went light on my weapons today. I was able to do my warmups, the Taiji Solo Form, and the Bagua Swimming Dragon Form. I think I did the Double Fan Form? Maybe? Not the other ones, though. I also did the part of the Bagua Knife Form I know. I think. It’s hard to say beacuse i do a lot of the same things every day, so it blends together.
I know this is better than getting the flu or Covid, but it’s still sucky. I think this is something that people have a hard time understanding. Something can be both bad and good at the same time. These days especially, Americans really are binary. Not just when it comes to gender, but about so many things.
We especially like to label someone good and the other person bad. There has to be a villian and a hero, and we have to be team one person or the other. Nuance, never one of our strong suits, has gotten even worse in the past decade or so.
Anyway, I did not get the flu shot for many years, but after my medical crisis, I decided it’s not time to mess around. That’s why I got my pneumonia vax, too. My immune system is a mess, and I need to be really careful about what I do to it. And I’ve been faithfully getting my Covid boosters every six months (more or less). I don’t go out much, and I still wear a mask. I’ve always had a shitty immune system, and it’s only gotten worse since my medical crisis.