Back with the weather report. It’s 63F right now, which is pretty common. But, it’s supposed to get up to 89F tomorrow. What? I mean, what in the actual fuck? Yesterday, as I noted, it was 50F around this time of night, which is pretty normal–I guess? Oh, and on Tuesday, there’s a low of 41F.
I cannot. I’m done with the weather right now. We’re taking a break.
I wish it were as easy as that, but it’s not, of course. I don’t get to choose my relationship with the weather–though I will not be going outside tomorrow if it really hits 89F. I have to run errands, so I’ll be outside briefly, though. Going from 89 to 41 in a matter of a few days is just wild to me. We have very different weather at different times in MN, yes, but that’s usually done by seasons–not by a matter of days. Or even in the same day!
I do wonder if we’re going to have a true spring/summer, though. I’m guessing we’ll have some summer even if it’s just a few weeks. We always have a week or two of ninties to a hundred degrees in July/August, so I’m counting on that happening. Spring has been pretty much winter-lite, though.
Usually, we’re used to March/April being up and down, but usually things even out by May. I truly thought that this was going to be the week that spring hit for real, but, no. We have a 41F as a low in a few days.
This is climate change at work, and we’re doomed.
Well, that’s the end of this post. I’m just kidding, of course, but, wow, we’re living in the darkest timeline. I don’t have anything positive to say at the moment. I glance at the news once a day, twice at the most, and it’s just all depressing. Well, not all, but mostly. On so many levels. I am not going to list them all, but it keeps me in a state of anger, depression, and disbelief.
I’m past wondering how people can be so ignorant, hateful, and voting for things that are against their best interests. The answer is not one I can say in polite society without getting a lot of heat in return. My disdain for my fellow American is growing on the daily. Oh, and I really hate the ‘both sides’ bullshit that gets bandied about. “Both sides are so inflexible and need to move towards the middle’. Nope. Not true. My civil rights and my humanity are not up for debate. There is no middle ground between queers are human beings with full civil rights and we’re not. There just isn’t.
Nor is there any middle ground between we should help the most fragile among us and we should not. There are conversations to be had about how we do that, yes, but not about whether it should be done or not–at least not on a humane level.
I remember back when marriage equality was being debated. So many conservative Christians chastized queers forb being ‘uncivil’ about it in the way we spoke. “Why can’t we have a civil converastion?”, they cried, their tones earnest and their eyes moist. What no one mentioned was that they were being deeply uncivil in action by wanting to deny the humanity of queer people–which was a hell of a lot worse than being uncivil in tone or words.
I am not someone who thinks words can’t hurt someone. They can–deeply. But I do believe that actions hurt much more–especially when they’re intended to hurt. And, make no mistake, the laws against queer people, specifically trans people, are designed to hurt.
I think that’s the thing that bothers me the most on an emotional level–the amount of spite and hate aimed at queer people. It’s not as if I haven’t had to deal with it all my life–I have. But for whatever reason, it feels so much more spiteful now.
It’s because of this president. As much as I’ve disliked past presidents (and believe me, it’s been a lot for certain presidents in my lifetime), I’ve never felt as much hate coming from one of them to me. It makes sense with this president, but it doesn’t make it any easier to deal with.
Also, let’s say that we manage to survive his regime and that our democracy remains (barely) intact (but in complete tatters). Can we resurrect it from the ashes and return it to something resembling competence? I don’t know. With all three branches being dominated by the Republicans, there will be irreparable damage. Even if the next president is a Democrat, he (and it’ll be a he–let’s not fool ourselves) will have to spend his whole first term just cleaning up the mess that was left by this president.
I’m so tired. I feel like we don’t learn from one election to the next. We’ve made progress, yes, but we’re losing so much ground this time around. Not just in civil rights (though that would be bad enough), but in all the important issues.
Side note: One thing that really irritates the fuck out of me is how far this president’s supporters will go to not blame him for the shitty things that are happening. I know it’s very much a ‘he’s on my team’ kind of thing, but as it’s not how I’m wired, it’s so fucking frustrating.
This is me in general, though. I may like someone a lot and still be able to see their flaws. I consider Obama the best president in my lifetime, and I could still list dozens of things that I wished he had done differently. One thing, though, is that I never doubted he wanted to do what he thought was best for the country.
In fact, I would say that for all the rest of the presidents in my lifetime. I may not agree with their choices or what they thought was best for the country. I may have thought they were doing things to make themselves look good while aiming to help the country, but I still gave them credit for at least thinking of the country.
Not this president–not by a long shot. He doesn’t give a shit about anything as amorphous as ‘the country’ or the people in it. I would bet he doesn’t even really care about his supporters except in the context that they support him.
That’s all for tonight. I will have more to say tomorrow, including the daily temp check.