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Using my powers for good

Posted on July 22, 2022 by Minna Hong • 0 Comments

I know that I’m charismatic and that people are drawn to me. Not everyone. I’m not for people who are pragmatic and non-emotional. Except my brother, and that’s partly because I can explain people to him. But for others who have no need of this, I can probably appear to be pure emotions. That must be frustrating for people who are doers, but maybe not because I get shit done as well.

I mentioned before that when I started participating in the RKG Discord, there were people who were really happy to see me. like REALLY happy. One said that he had been looking for me ever since he signed up (which he did during a Krupa stream–and we helped him do it). Another said that he remembered my name from the chats and was glad to see me.

Several others were very warm in welcoming me, and I’ve dived straight in. I mostly hang out in the Producers chat (tier level on Patreon) and the chat for Krupa’s plat, but I dip into other chats, too. I’m extremely adept at talking to people, in part because I can tailor my messages to the person.

I know it’s partly because I’m female-presenting in a male-dominated world, too, but its’ not as if I have a pic of me in Discord. I also don’t think they know that I’m old, but not sure how much that would even matter. It was funny because the lads were talking about dating older women once. Gav and Krupa both have, but Rory hasn’t. He said he was open to it, but it just hadn’t ever happened. Gav and Krupa were both enthused about it.

I’m not looking to date anyone in the RKG group, but I do wonder how they view me at times. When I was in college, my boyfriend told me that all my male friends were trying to get into my pants. I didn’t think that was true, especially as I had gay male friends, but I couldn’t deny that some of them wanted to. And perhaps a few of my female friends as well. I don’t think it’s a problem, though, because we can choose to act on it or not.

As someone who’s attracted to people of all different genders, it would be cruel to tell me I could not be friends with people of the genders I’m attracted to. This would mean I could not be friends with anyone, which is a sad state of affairs. Also, you can be attracted to someone and not act on it! I know that sounds wild, but it’s totally true! I have had crushes on many of my friends and our friendship has weathered that crush. And I’ve had friends who’ve had a crush on me and gotten past it.

I do know that I could coax people into a sexual relationship with me, which is why I need to watch it carefully. I don’t believe in the concept of leading someone on, exactly, but when I’m sparkling, everyone wants to sparkle with me.

Let me entertain you

Posted on July 9, 2022 by Minna Hong • 0 Comments

I was talking to K yesterday and we got on the subject of what I want to do with the rest of my bonus days. I’m working on some writing projects, but that’s not unusual because I always am. I’m also toying with doing video. I hate the idea because it’s so not my medium, but writing is dead and I have to adapt with the times.

I was mentioning how I’d said on Twitter once that I was thinking of streaming from my couch, Shadow on my lap, as I drank my coffee and surfed the internet. This was years ago. I actually had a few serious ‘I would watch that’ responses, which floored me. I mean, it shouldn’t. There are mukbangs, ASMR, people reading out loud, and a bunch of other stuff that is just basically watching a person existing.

Which, ok, fine. But it’s still weird to me. I mentioned this to K and she said she could see it (with me). She reminded me that I had acted in my twenties and that maybe because of that or something else, but I had a presence. I immediately jumped in and said, “I have charisma.” I know it. ‘ve known it since I was in college. But because of what I’ve seen my father do with it,

It’s hard for me to see it as a positive, but these are my bonus days. If I can’t do something differently now, then when? My brother has been saying for a long time that I should use my charisma for good. Not to mention my ability to read people.

I’ve been on a kick of feeling myself (literally and metaphorically). I tweeted Lizzo’s Good As Hell video (live from Glastonbury) because that’s my theme song for this year. Yes, I’m late in the Lizzo love, but I got there eventually. Someone on Twitter told me that his ex was jealous of his friendship with me. Like, it actually became an issue in their relationship. That floored me because I’m not particularly flirty on Twitter. Yes, I will talk about sex or my as or whatever, but it’s not as if I propositioning people. Also, I don’t do pictures. At least not at that time. I have posted a few selfies post-hospital, but mostly with my mask on.

I thought it was really wild that his girlfriend at the time had an issue with us being friends, but when I told K about it, she said she could understand. And it reminded me of when I was in college, I was friends with a lot of guys. Back then, I was into the cool chick meta for many reasons. One, I liked ‘guy’ stuff much more so than ‘woman’ stuff. Two, I wanted to be accepted by guys. Three, It was a way to hang out around the guys I liked without being threatening. I could be one of the guys and laugh at them about the other silly women. At some point, though, I realize that I was only there on sufferance and if I ever slipped in my behavior, I would become one of those ‘silly girls’.