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The limits of labels

I wanted to do a post on labels, so I looked up ‘No Labels’ to se ewhat they were up to these days. Unfortunately, they’re deciding to be assholes as usual. Basically, they are a bunch of rich people who want to rule America. So, per yooz, but without being principled enough to choose a political party. Because they would not suceeed in that party. So they took their balls to make another party. In other words, they are exceedingly egotistical people who think it should be all about them.

If you are a power-hungry asshole, just SAY you’re a power-hungry asshole. I do think that only having two political parties is bullshit. Most of my life, I’ve voted for the lesser of two evils, and it’s not great. It gives too much power to those two groups and disenfranchises many people. The solution is not to tave a bunch of gazillionaires declare themselves as de facto rulers of the land. that’s way too much like an oligarchy.

That is not the point of this post, though! I’m talking about personal labels. Back when I realized I was bi (thirty years ago), the common refrain in the queer community was to rebuff the ‘its a choice’ or ‘it’s a lifestyle’ phrasing when it came to being queer. And I get it. Straight people didn’t waake up one day and think, “Hey, I’ve decided i’m going to be straight today.” So, yeah, I was born this way to quote Lady Gaga. But. And this is the important part. I would have chosen to be this way if I had a choice in the matter. I ilke being attracted to people of all genders. Or no gender like me. I’m greedy. Why limit myself to just one? It’s broaden my horizons, and while I do see gender, it’s not the most important factor in my attraction to someone.

I didn’t like the ‘I can’t help being queer’ mentality because there was always a tinge of…negativity to it? Not negativity, exactly,  but….

Look. Let me put it this way. When I was in my later twenties, women started asking me if I had children/was plainning on having them/wanted them. I was young and naive, and I said no. Just no. Not “hell fucking no!” or “No, I don’t want them.” Just no.

I thought it was a decision that only affected me, but I was so wrong. Everyone had something to say about it, which boggled my mind. For whatever reason, the content of my womb was fair game to other women. I hadn’t got the memo, so I was gobsmacked with the outsized reactions I recieved.

Then, because I was feeling like an outcast, I looked for a book that might have stories from other women* about not wanting children. This was before the internet was as ubiquitous as it is now, so I was looking for an actual anthology. As in a book. I found one, and I was elated to get it. Imagine my disappointment when I realized that almost all the stories (and I mean all but one or two) were by women who wanted children, but chose not to have them for one reason or the other. Or who decided to not have children because of medical issues in their family.

All of them bent over backwards to say how much they loved children and how they were so disappointed not to be able to have them. More than one made sure to mention how they were aunts or had other children in their lives.

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Lies of P and accessibility

In the last two posts, I’ve talked about Lies of P (Round8 Studio/Neowiz Games) and disability in gaming, respectively. The latter is because I’m playing the former, and it’s kicking my ass in the way Sekiro (FromSoft) did. I want to make it clear as I did the last time I wrote about the game. It’s a very good game. Like, really good. Well, I have complaints. Let’s go through those first because I get to the disability issue.

I have *spoilers* beatien the mini-boss and the second actual boss. I’m going to talk about that later, but let me say the second area really fucking annoyed me. One thing I dislike about Soulslikes is that they often take away the wrong lessons from From games.

Let me say this for the umpteenth time. The difficulty is not the point of the From games–or it shouldn’t be. For the most part, the difficulty is very much a secondary aspect of the games*, and it’s more about the discovery and the exploration.

This is not the same with Lies of P. There really is not much discovery. It’s gorgeous to look at, yes, but the environments are very restricted–and they’re oddly barren. In addition, I’m in the third area, and so far, all the enemies have been roughly the same. Now, to be fair, Bloodborne had the same villagers for the first area (and sub-areas). There were other enemise, too, though, including wolfmen, trolls, and wolf-wolves. In Lies of P, the puppets are different, but they look similar. And most of the garden-variety ones act pretty much the same. There are bigger puppets with different movesets, but they look the same as the other. And, of course, there are dogs. Apparently, there always have to be dogs in games like this.

I really don’t like the barren environments. I would prefer they didn’t look as nice, but had more of a lived-in feel to them. I get it. There has been a puppet uprising, and a war between humans and enemies. But, I really don’t like how lifeless the game feels. There’s you. There are the mobs of enemies. There are the NPCs. That’s it.

Speaking of mobs. Sigh. This is another thing that Iwish Soulslike would eschew because they don’t do it well–mobs need to be thoughtful. Not just a bunch of enemies thrown at you willy and, indeed, nilly. They have no stamina limit. They can just keep on attacking you. And, while you can hit them enough to stagger them, each individual hit does nothing to their poise.

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