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Money vs. time

I have a Taiji classmate who has a used laptop that I think was giving to her. It has Ubuntu on it, and she has complained that it does run properly. Like, one out of three times, she can’t use the Zoom link for class properly. For whatever reason, it does not have Google or Microsoft, so it makes life difficult for her. I have no idea if she paid money for it or if someone gave it to her, but the amount of time she’s had issues with it has been in equal parts amusing and aggravating.

The former because who has Ubuntu other than uber-tech people? The latter because she has to go on and on about it and how anxious she is about it. In that, she reminds me of my mother, which is probably why it annoys me as well.

Here’s the thing, though. She buys used laptops (or is given them?) because she  thinks it’s outrageous to spend money for a laptop when it’s going to be useless in three years. I can’t blame her for that, exactly, because PCs aren’t cheap. At all. You can get a basic one for $600, which, for three years, isn’t terrible. But if you want any amenities that make the machine more than a glorified tablet, it’s gonna cost you.

My current laptop was a thou or so. I bought it four years ago, and I felt the limitations even when I bought it. See, at the time, I wanted to keep the price down, so I went as low as possible. I got the bare minimum amount of memory, for example. Then, I ran out so quickly.

In addition, the keyboards are crap in a laptop. I am a heavy user, yes, but a keyboard should last longer than three weeks. That’s how long this one lasted. Yes, I hit the keyboards hard, but three weeks is outrageous. Now, i just use an external keyboard, and even then, I have to replace them every other year (and they supposedly last 100 million keystrokes).

Then, I ended up in the hospital and was not supposed to live. Afterwards, I realized I had to get a desktop in order to play Elden Ring. And, yes, everything is related to FromSoft somehow. They dropped the specs for the PC version rather late, something like ten days before the game released.

My laptop was not going to cut it, and my desktop was about a decade old. I hadn’t touched it in years. There was no way it was going to play Elden Ring. I scrambled to put together a new rig, and I decided to splash out. I had already known the joys of SSD (after had said I would never get it), and I made sure to get plenty of memory. The specs for the game was 1060 Nvidia, and my laptop only had 1050. I got a 3070 graphics card in my desktop.


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Societal vs. personal

My brother and I were talking about his journey into dating apps land. I set up my OkCupid profile out of curiosity and immediately shut down. It made me panic because there was just too much stuff to look over. And they were pinging me with notifications that didn’t matter. I don’t like not being in control of what I see, which is an issue of mine. In addition, the first woman confused me because she was married, straight, and looking for friends with benefits. Presumably, only men, so why did she show up for me?

The algorithms don’t like me. I’m a freak and I break all the boundaries, and as open as the profile is, they still don’t like it when the person doesn’t go down a prescribed path. I left it open to pretty much anything other than just friends and maybe a few other constraints. It did not like it, and I did not like the app. I prefer Bumble because it’s much smaller and with less choices.

Anyway, my brother called me yesterday, nervous and excited because a woman he thought was way out of his league (but swiped right on, anyway), matched with him. I was tickled to see him so excited, like a kid in a candy shop. And, I must admit, it was fun to see and hear him so nervous as he’s usually very cool under pressure.

I did tell him that she was just a person like he was. I don’t really believe in leagues or being out of them, but I understand feeling someone is out of reach. However, she is just a person with flaws and assets like the rest of us, no matter how attractive she is. Plus, he doesn’t know her so it’s her personality might not match his at all. Or her smell. Or anything else.

I didn’t want to dampen his enthusiasm too much, so I let him be free to feel the butterflies. He hasn’t dated in nearly three decades and it’s pretty endearing to see him nervous about it.

I will say, though, that we got into a bit of a tiff because he only likes skinny women with no boobs, the slightest bit of hips, and no ass. He doesn’t like them to wear makeup, either. He’s very frank about this, and it’s just grating to hear at times. I’m fat. But more than that, I have huge boobs and now have an ass as well. To hear him repeatedly talk about how not attractive he finds even normal weight women, well, it’s not great for the ego. So I was a bit sharp when he said for the umpteenth time that some normal-weight woman was too heavy for him. He called her overweight; she wasn’t.


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