One thing about my medical experience is that it really separated the wheat from the chaff. What I mean is that many of the things I was anxious about in the Before (hospital) Times, simply do not matter any longer. It’s hard to talk about it without seeming condescending or as if I’m glossing over… Continue Reading
I’m grateful to be alive. Ever since dying twice and coming back (twice!), I’ve been supremely aware of my mortality. When I first woke up in the hospital after a week of being unconscious, I spent a lot of time just being grateful to be alive and marveling over the little things. The ice water… Continue Reading
A few hours after this post goes up, it’ll be the five-month anniversary of my medical trauma. That’s astonishing to me because I didn’t think I’d make it past the third month, but not for health reasons. Healthwise, I’m lucky that I haven’t taken any sustained damage. I have been checked out and given a… Continue Reading
For most of my life, I’ve defined myself mostly by what I am not. I am not normal. I am not like other people. I am not feminine in that I don’t care about fashion, hair, or makeup. Though since the hospital, I’ve been having more fun with my hair. I did it in Chun-Li… Continue Reading
I talked in my last post about two letters I’d read in Care & Feeding (Slate), one right after the other. They had to do with highly sensitive people and how parents/grandparents reacted to them. The third and fourth letters were about gender identity and closely related. The third letter is from a mom grieving… Continue Reading
All my life, I’ve been told I’m too sensitive. Mostly by my mother as a way to manipulate my emotions. That might not be her intent, but that’s the effect, which is more important in the end. I learned quickly as a kid that my emotions didn’t matter–and more to the point, I was not… Continue Reading
Every time there’s a new FromSoft game, I do a dance that I call–well, I don’t call it anything. I just do it quietly and to myself. Well, I bitch about it on social media, but that’s about it. And talk about it with Ian, but that’s really it. It’s the dance of deciding how… Continue Reading
I can’t stop thinking about my brother saying of course I didn’t like movies because I was two steps ahead of the plot at all times (because of my high sensitivity to people’s emotions). Funnily enough, that’s why I enjoy mystery books–because I know who the perp is halfway into the novel. I usually know… Continue Reading
I’m watching Ellen from Outsidextra stream Dark Souls III (FromSoft, of course). She played the first game for the first time about a year ago with the tutelage of her colleague, Luke, and absolutely smashed the game. She took out Ornstein and Smough in two or three tries. I will admit I didn’t watch all… Continue Reading
FromSoft revealed more about Elden Ring at the Taipei Game Show. More gameplay footage and an interview with Yashiro Kitao, a producer with FromSoft. He talked about quite a bit, including that the game should take 30 hours for the main storyline. That bit made me laugh out loud because that’s ridiculous. I feel like… Continue Reading