I am incapable of not criticizing things. At least in my head if not out loud. This is the legacy of an anxious mother, but it’s also because I am very nitpicky about generalizations. I like things to be as specific and truthful as possible. It makes me seem contrary because I will argue both sides of the same issue. Not out of orneriness, but becuse it upsets my brain to let an untruth stand*. It physically hurts my brain in a way I can’t really explain.
It’s one reason I keep on explaining shit past the point where I should stop. I know when I’ve lost my audience. I can tell by the look in their eyes or the drop of their shoulders. But my brain is still hurting, and I need it to be balanced.
So, yeah. I’m doing it for me rather than the other person. But at the same time, I do believe in what I’m saying. I’m not saying it just to be a jerk. In fact, that’s why I often don’t actually say it–because I know how it sounds.
I was talking to a friend on the RKG Discord (Direct Messages) about how I have just given up talking about Lies of P in that channel. Why? Because everyone adores the game and thinks it’s the best soulslike ever. People gush about it and the worst thing anyone says about it is that it’s too From-like.
Back when it came out, reviewers raved about it. Almost everyone gave it a 10 or close to it. I was boggled by it because while it’s very polished and a decent soulslike, I had a much dimmer view of it than other people did. Oh, I should say a few people in the Discord did have a few gripes that I had about it, but nothing close to how I felt about it.
The video I’ve included in this post is the review by Zoe from Eurogamer. She gave it a 3 out of 5–which is roughly what I’d give it. And as she had to point out in other videos, that’s still a good number. No, it’s not a 10, but it’s still decent.
I’m not going to recount my issues with the game because I’ve done tons of posts about that game already.
My point is that I realized pretty quickly that while no one actually tried to shut down my opinion, it was clearly dismissed as being wrong. Part of the problem with persistent isms is that it’s hard to show the people in the majority the absence of what they experience–or the opposite. I can explain until I’m blue in the face how the system they so love is such a detriment to me. I can’t ‘git gud’ because it’s above my actual abilities.