Six months ago was the worst night of my life. One that will be etched in my brain forever, even though I was unconscious when it happened, I’ll never forget the retelling of it by my brother. Nor the moment when I opened my eyes, angry, confused, and afraid. I was ready to fight whatever… Continue Reading
I tend to be someone who runs at the base of what I need until I begrudgingly have to up that base for some reason. I don’t like to spend money even though I can afford to do it now and again. To be clear, I am not skimping on the basics by any mean.… Continue Reading
So. Since talking to my brother about my ability to read people, I’ve been thinking more about it. For most of my life, I’ve thought of it as something to tamp down and block myself from to the best of my ability. It’s difficult to deal with that kind of input on a daily basis… Continue Reading
My brother was over yesterday helping me with my new compy. I ordered Thai to thank him for his help. We were eating yellow curry (chicken and potato–outstanding!) when he said, “I thought about what you said a few weeks ago.” I looked at him expectantly because I didn’t remember what we talked about a… Continue Reading
I am extremely privileged in many ways, especially financially. I don’t have to worry about money and believe me, I know that’s a huge blessing in life. I’ve been thinking about getting a desktop because I want a work station. A stand/sit desk, but that will have to wait. Well, not have to, but will… Continue Reading
I have a terrible time making decisions. It’s because my mother has a habit of questioning her decisions, no matter what they are. More to the point, she won’t accept an answer to her question without bringing it to at least two other people. Ian wondered why she asked me questions when she immediately went… Continue Reading
I am a woman. Or am I? I’m not a man. That’s for sure. Am I nonbinary? Maybe, but that doesn’t really feel like me, either. As always, I just want to sigh and walk away when I think of gender. Introspection is great, but there is a limit to it. Or at least there… Continue Reading
I gave up Twitter some years ago. I still tweet from time to time, but I rarely check my timeline any longer. Why? There are many reasons, but a big one is how quick people are to jump on you for anything you say. I don’t mean the big stuff that should be jumped on,… Continue Reading
So. I have written many times about my confusion over my gender identity. It’s never been that I feel like a man, though I have wished to be male many times in my childhood. It wasn’t because I felt like a boy, but because I hated being a girl so much. It was so limiting… Continue Reading
One of the major tenets of Taiji (if not the major one) is to be as lazy as possible in your movements. My teacher has to emphasize this with Americans because our society is very much no pain, no gain–give it 110% (which drives me crazy when people say that because it is literally impossible.… Continue Reading