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It’s time to say goodbye (provisionally) to MHW

easy-peasy with four people.
Ain’t no party like a gank party, hey, ho!

I’m still hacking up a lung, which is really unpleasant. I’ve been wanting to fight Tempered Kirin, but my energy is too low to take on that challenge. One of the best and worst things about Monster Hunter: World is that doing each new quest solo takes a lot of energy. They aren’t necessarily hard (though some of them are), but they are grueling. CapCom has added Arch-Tempered Kulve Taroth, Nergy, and Kirin (I think the first and third are temporary), which just makes me heave a sigh.

I’m going to make a confession that I’ve alluded to before, but I’ll state it plainly now. I find the Tempered Monsters to be boring. They just have way more health than their HR counterparts, and they’re more aggressive. That’s it. Doing them solo is tedious, and doing them with a talented crew is too easy. Granted, I haven’t hit the Tempered Elder Dragons yet, so that might change. The thing is, I’m not looking forward to it at all. I’ve been putting off Tempered Kirin because I’m sick, yes, but also because I’m not enthusiastic about it. I know I can do it multi and be done with it, but that defeats the point, I think. Or not? The most fun I have with the game is multi, so maybe I should adjust the way I’m thinking about the game. I have nothing left to prove as I’ve beaten all the monsters solo.

I was thinking about hardness in the Dark Souls games last night. I beat the Fume Knight with the help of a really stellar player summons (shout-out to Zoi and all the people still playing DS II after all this time) and the two NPC summons*. I had looked him up beforehand to refresh myself as to his weaknesses, and I noticed that his HP was 14,258. Gwyn, the final boss of DS had 4,250. Yes, Fume Knight had over 10,000 more HP than Gwyn. Sister Friede has 18,877 (total for her three phases). To be fair, the boss with the highest HP in Dark Souls was also in the DLC, Manus, and he had 6,665. Still. Giving a boss way more health is not my favorite way of making a game hard, but at least in Souls games, it’s not simply giving bosses more health.

I suppose you can think of Tempered Monsters as NG+ and Arch-Tempered Elder Dragons as NG++++++++, but the problem with that is that it’s only the monsters that get buffed. I mean, yeah, I know the whole game is centered around slewing monsters (it’s right there in the title), but at least during the storyline, as it were, you find different areas, different environmental life, new NPCs, and new armor. You unlock different upgrades to your weapons, and new upgrading systems. Once you hit Tempered Monsters, everything is pretty much unlocked as far as new stuff.

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Tidying Up the Mess: General Housekeeping From the Staff (Me)

may i have your attention, please.
Cleaning house!

There is one upside to being sick: It’s given me a lot of time to think, albeit morbidly, about this blog, my life in general, and the direction thereof of both. I’ve had a hard time writing every day, and it had me questioning whether it was even worth it. Don’t get me wrong, I want to keep on blogging; I’m just not sure it’s worth it. To be brutally honest, I feel as if I’m shouting into the void for many reasons, and I don’t like doing things that aren’t beneficial in one way or another.

If I do continue blogging, I’m most likely going to change the format. Initially, I decided to choose one topic for every day of the week to give myself some structure. And, to be honest, so readers would know what to expect every day. True to my nature, I soon said, “Fuck it. I’m going to write whatever I want whenever I want and just label it under each day. It’s my blog; I can do whatever I want.” I felt restricted by the constraints I placed on myself, though I do feel it helped me over all. One of my biggest flaws when it comes to writing is that I’m undisciplined, and forcing myself to write about a certain topic every day actually got me to write.

Now, though, I’m finding myself more frustrated than not when I try to stick to the schedule. In addition, I’ve pulled way back from writing about politics, which is my Thursday topic. Not because I don’t care, but because it’s overwhelming. I started using Twitter and Facebook in earnest during the 2008 campaign, which means I have a ton of political people in my TL/feed. I’m grateful to have so many intelligent, conscientious people in my social media, but it becomes crushing to read post after post about the fuckery of this presidential administration.

In addition, so much of the reporting on it is political theater, and it’s depressing to watch the media cavil at calling this president exactly what he is: a narcissistic, petulant, childish, tyrannical, deeply ignorant, idiotic, dangerous despot. We don’t need any more, “Can you believe this president is doing this?” articles because unless it’s something positive, yes, I can believe this president is doing something terrible, ignorant, self-destructive (country-self, mostly, but also self-self), and petty. That. Is. Who. He. Is.

What we need are posts about how to stop him and the cowardly Republicans who are supporting him. We also need articles constantly exposing the president and the Republicans for all their shenanigans, holding their feet to the fire, and demanding that they do their goddamn fucking jobs.

Breathe, Minna, breathe.

This is why I need to pull back from politics. I can’t deal with the constant (righteous) outrage over this president and this congress. I’m not talking about checking out because I think we all have a moral obligation to stay aware of what’s happening to our democracy, but I don’t think it’s helping anyone for us to make ourselves sick over it. Let me be clear. You and I can only individually do so much. Collectively, we can do a lot, but not if we run ourselves into the ground. One of my problems when I get overwhelmed is that I get depressed. When I get depressed, I get paralyzed. It’s a trite trope, but it’s true–if you don’t take care of yourself, you can’t take care of anyone (or anything) else.

I’m not going anywhere, but I just need a shakeup. I’m not sure what, exactly, so I’m going to make it up as I go. Join me in the journey.