I’m back to talk more about anger and my difficulty in controlling it since my medical crisis. I do have to consider that some of it is purely biological. As I’ve mentioned, I’ve found out that it’s a common side effect of having as stroke. And the war I had in my brain and body… Continue Reading
I thought I was done with the topic of anger, but it seems I have one more post within me. Here’s my post from yesterday. I know that many people say that anger is bad, blah, blah, blah. And, yes, you don’t want it to explode all over the place, but as I said, I… Continue Reading
Let’s talk one more time about anger. I had my private lesson today, and I mentioned the argument with my mother that I recently had to my teacher. I was still upset with myself for letting it get as far as it did, but I totally did not see the trap in time. That’s what… Continue Reading
Let’s talk more about the anger I have in my heart. I don’t want to have it, but I’m not trying to tamp it down any longer, either. Anger can be a useful tool as long as it’s used well and judiciously. It’s something I’ve had to learn to embrace rather than try to stuff… Continue Reading
Let’s talk more about rage. I could soften it and talk about it in the socially polite way. “I was having difficulty reining in my anger, and I needed to focus on my breathing to do so.” Here is my post from yesterday in which I discuss all my struggles with my temper. I had… Continue Reading
I’ve been writing about trying to control my temper beacuse I had an episode with my mother last night. It’s been a while beacuse normally, I’m really good at avoiding sensitive topics because normally, I just have to listen to her talk about my father for twenty minutes to a half hour and tell her… Continue Reading
I’ve always had a temper; it’s just in my younger years, I was really good at reining it in. Like, inhumanly good. I had to be beacuse I was punished for not doing so. Not physically, but emotionally shamed/chastised for it. I was not allowed to show any negative emotion. If I did, I would… Continue Reading
Let’s talk about martial arts some more. Why? Because I’ve been thinking about the obsessions I have in my life. I have the type of personality neuroatypical brain that latches onto something and won’t let go–for a given amount of time. It can be a few months like black “diamonds”, jigsaw puzzles, musical soundtracks (like… Continue Reading
I’ve talked in the past about how much I love the weapon forms in Taiji (and now, Bagua). I am grateful for the health benefits, but they are not the focus for me. Side note: We’re supposed to get between twelve and eighteen inches of snow over the weekend. I am so excited, even if… Continue Reading
I am going to talk more about weapons. Yesterday, I spent a huge chunk of the post talking about my stroke. There was a reason for it, and I’m going to talk a little more about it today. I was saying how since I recovered so well from my medical crisis, I sometimes forget that… Continue Reading