I have mentioned more than once that I have a hard time communicating with people. I don’t have a hard time talking to them because I have a very good EQ. I know how to meet people on their level and quickly adjust my language to reflect that. What I have difficulty doing sometimes, however,… Continue Reading
I’ve been musing for some time about being a weirdo in a word full of normies. Of course, we can debate normal for days, but there are societal norms such as getting (het) married and having children. I realized when I was 22 that I neither wanted children nor had to have them. It was… Continue Reading
For the first year after my medical crisis, I was concentrating on, well, adjusting to being alive. Still. A month or so after I got out of the hospital, my mother started bugging me about what I was going to do with the rest of my life. In retrospect, I’m sure it’s because my father… Continue Reading
Once when I was in my twenties, my mother was probing me about my life goals. Which, that’s a mother thing to do so I can’t blame her for it. At one point, though, she was exasperated at me and snapped, “Do you not want to work?” I, being stupid, took her at face value… Continue Reading
I was talking to my brother about dating (because he currently is), and he was joking that I should meet the women he liked before he got serious because I’m good at reading people. I laughed and said that it would be futile because NRE (New Relationship Energy) is strong and nobody listens to someone… Continue Reading
I hated Taiji when I first started studying it. I had a teacher before my current one, and he was terrible. Flat-out terrible. I only went to him because a friend of mine was enamored with him (he has a very cultlike personality, and my friend needed a father-figure desperately as his own had been… Continue Reading
I’m a PC gamer, which means that technically, I cannot get platinums. Why? Because that is a PlayStation thing. I do have a PlayStation 4, but most of my not-plats as I call them (because I was never going for the plat in the first place. Well, ok, I was. It was how I tricked… Continue Reading
My brother is great at starting a project. If he wants to do something, he just jumps in and does it. He may not finish it. He may put it in the reject pile at some point. But he will move on with ease to the next project and not think twice about it. Me,… Continue Reading
I have a Taiji confession to make. I do not like the Long Solo Form. This is the basis for everything we do, and it’s the first thing I was taught by my teacher fifteen years ago. I hated it then and resisted it with all my might. I questioned my teacher every step of… Continue Reading
I’ve written about how my self-esteem has skyrocketed since my medical crisis. In general, I am happier with myself. My depression has disappeared almost completely and my anxiety is reduced by roughly 60%. Considering that I first wanted to die when I was seven, this is a massive improvement for me. In addition, all my… Continue Reading